I dunno what it is, but today I feel like CRAP.
I think it was because of last night.
Don't get me wrong, yesterday
; but almost immediately when I got home things kinda turned out badly.
One group of people were making me feel just awful (too complicated to explain unless you wanna hear about it in a note) and another group of people were just being so gosh dang clingy
even though I don't even know them all that well.
Well, maybe Clingy's the wrong word. Maybe I'm just not use to people becoming ever-so attached to me that they'll spew a bunch of depressing sh*t just so that I can say things to "argue" such statements with my repertoire of feel-good sentiments that I always seem to have on stand-by. (If that makes any sense)
Plus I still have a long list of art things I gotta get done, but I either never finish them, or I'm too lazy to draw them.
I can draw crappy stuff on impulse just for the fun of it, (which rarely happens anyway) but anything else I get so bored and frustrated with it that I can't even progress beyond a half-finished, hard-to-make-out sketch.
Most of the things I wanna do started out as just-for-fun kind of stuff anyway, but even then...
I dunno. Today I just feel like I wanna crawl into a hole
(Heck I'm even avoiding an MLP forum because I didn't wanna start a sh*t-storm of debate, even though I really wanna get my thoughts on the newest episode- and people's reaction to it- off my chest)
Even deviantART makes me feel guilty.
I have messages and journals and deviations backed up AGAIN, and I feel too guilty to talk about my problems on here because I know
that people will think I'm constantly griping and moaning about SOMETHING,
but if I kept crap like that on livejournal (y'know like normal people do) nobody would even respond to it.
(Not that they have or need to respond, but technically, I could write a suicide note on there and nobody would say a word. Then again, internet suicide notes come off as attention-seeking and whorish anyway, so I wouldn't even do that, but still.
Anyway. Yeah. This is probably gonna be TL;DR for most people, just like usual. (Not that I'm trying to make you guys feel bad, I just hate myself for typing too much. I feel bad for wasting people's time)LIST OF THINGS TO DO
( means done, means started, means not started) Loveless RP character designs
Loveless RP Character Profile
Loveless character for
FL Chibi Profile (F*CK YEAH I FINISHED IT)
STP Secret Santa (Forgive me OTL)
Sena from moe-kan (for Kitayume)
Chibi-san fan art (incense and peppermints)
Moar STP stuff (SERIOUSLY)
/ My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (OC, group of friends, STP, Hetalia, THEN actual fan art)
Boy Bunny to accompany this: [link]
9 Chibi thing from random requester
//Upload sh*tty doodles in scraps
G R O U P S
S T A M P S