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Life Update (haha what life?)

Journal Entry: Sun Feb 13, 2011, 6:42 PM
Hey guys

I dunno what it is, but today I feel like CRAP.

I think it was because of last night.

Don't get me wrong, yesterday was awesome; but almost immediately when I got home things kinda turned out badly.

One group of people were making me feel just awful (too complicated to explain unless you wanna hear about it in a note) and another group of people were just being so gosh dang clingy even though I don't even know them all that well.

Well, maybe Clingy's the wrong word. Maybe I'm just not use to people becoming ever-so attached to me that they'll spew a bunch of depressing sh*t just so that I can say things to "argue" such statements with my repertoire of feel-good sentiments that I always seem to have on stand-by. (If that makes any sense)

Plus I still have a long list of art things I gotta get done, but I either never finish them, or I'm too lazy to draw them.

I can draw crappy stuff on impulse just for the fun of it, (which rarely happens anyway) but anything else I get so bored and frustrated with it that I can't even progress beyond a half-finished, hard-to-make-out sketch.

Most of the things I wanna do started out as just-for-fun kind of stuff anyway, but even then...

I dunno. Today I just feel like I wanna crawl into a hole :( (Heck I'm even avoiding an MLP forum because I didn't wanna start a sh*t-storm of debate, even though I really wanna get my thoughts on the newest episode- and people's reaction to it- off my chest)

Even deviantART makes me feel guilty.

I have messages and journals and deviations backed up AGAIN, and I feel too guilty to talk about my problems on here because I know that people will think I'm constantly griping and moaning about SOMETHING, but if I kept crap like that on livejournal (y'know like normal people do) nobody would even respond to it.

(Not that they have or need to respond, but technically, I could write a suicide note on there and nobody would say a word. Then again, internet suicide notes come off as attention-seeking and whorish anyway, so I wouldn't even do that, but still.)

Anyway. Yeah. This is probably gonna be TL;DR for most people, just like usual. (Not that I'm trying to make you guys feel bad, I just hate myself for typing too much. I feel bad for wasting people's time)

LIST OF THINGS TO DO
(:bulletgreen: means done, :bulletyellow: means started, :bulletred: means not started)


:bulletgreen: Loveless RP character designs
:bulletred: Loveless RP Character Profile
:bulletred: Loveless character for :iconthegmr:
:bulletgreen: FL Chibi Profile (F*CK YEAH I FINISHED IT)
:bulletyellow: STP Secret Santa (Forgive me OTL)
:bulletyellow: STP Neko-meme
:bulletred: Sena from moe-kan (for Kitayume)
:bulletred: Chibi-san fan art (incense and peppermints)
:bulletred: Moar STP stuff (SERIOUSLY)
:bulletyellow:/:bulletred: My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic (OC, group of friends, STP, Hetalia, THEN actual fan art)
:bulletred: Boy Bunny to accompany this: [link]
:bulletred: 9 Chibi thing from random requester
:bulletgreen:/:bulletyellow:/:bulletred:Upload sh*tty doodles in scraps


G R O U P S
Anime:
:iconanime-lovers-united: :iconundiscoveredanimeart: :iconanime-galaxy: :icondrawanime: :iconabsolute-anime-club: :iconanimangart: :iconmangaacademy: :iconanime-manga-artists:


Hetalia:
:iconaphetalia-club: :iconhetalia-artists: :iconaph-americancivilwar: :icondenpolftw: :iconaphetalia-fans: :iconamericaxjapan: :iconallenfanclub: :iconhetalia: :iconhetalia-crack: :iconfmbxherrstick: :iconturkicefc: :iconcaptalia: :iconaxis-powershetalia:


States/APH OC's:
:iconstatetan-project: :iconaph-states-n-cities: :iconaph-ocs: :iconiammatthewianproject:


Himaruya:
:iconaph-wild-himaruya: :iconkitayume: :iconchibi-sandate:


Fan Stuff:
:icon1stpoketrio-club: :iconpharaoh-atemu: :iconyamixyugi-club: :icondothackgu-fanclub: :iconmoralorel-fans: :iconpokemoncreepy-pasta: :iconteam-venture: :iconvbros: :iconnheira-club: :icondrachearannak-fc: :icontardgrinn: :iconpaswg:


Other:
:icontutorialsclub: :iconphotoshop-tutorials: :iconiwadas: :iconhd-pokemon-rp: :iconsalemschool-rp: :icondrivenforimprovement: :iconsoul-mirrors:


S T A M P S
HETALIA AND HISTORY
:thumb166824666: :thumb138143472: :thumb183883905: :thumb150183493:

DA/ART RELATED
:thumb168515310: :thumb162496704: :thumb176527440: :thumb157281299:

OTHER FAN STUFF
:thumb128949379: :thumb119798840: :thumb175861581: :thumb184964016: :thumb185191521: :thumb175476189: :thumb99453563: :thumb156934012: :thumb175599195: :thumb175599567: :thumb46927312:
  • Mood: Mortified
  • Listening to: Nothin'~
  • Reading: my journal
  • Watching: all of you!
  • Eating: brains
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:iconldelphinus:
:hug: Sometimes (many times actually) i can get really frustated to make art and talk at DA...yeah i now how you feel pretty much. Feel free to talk with me :'D


Also, happy birthday and valentine!!! :heart: :heart:
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:iconmizutakishima:
~MizuTakishima Feb 14, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
lol aw shucks, that means a lot :,D Sorry that it happens to you too though

and thank you so much, Happy Valentine's to you too! :hug:
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:iconldelphinus:
;u; don't be sorry about it...i don't even say sorry for you and...


Your welcome and thanks!! It's kinda cool at your birthday, it's already valentine here :hug:
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:iconmizutakishima:
~MizuTakishima Feb 15, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
hehe yeah :hug:
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:iconicelilly:
~Icelilly Feb 13, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Aww... ;_; /hugs

It's okay. Everyone needs to let off some steam every now and then! :iconpandaglompplz:
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:iconmizutakishima:
~MizuTakishima Feb 14, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
You're right ; u ; I'll try and remember that from now on!

Thanks for stoppin' by to cheer me up, I feel lots better! :hug:
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:iconicelilly:
~Icelilly Feb 14, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
Anytime darling! :iconpandaglompplz:
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:iconsiri-nan:
:hug: It's one of those days that you can't help. You need to rant, go for it. Don't be bottling up emotions and stress now.
*cough* The rant line-MSN or Skype-IS open, dearie. ;P

You want to note me, go ahead. I'll listen, Mizu. (:
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:iconmizutakishima:
~MizuTakishima Feb 14, 2011  Hobbyist Digital Artist
lol well in a way I ranted just now, so I'm feelin' better ; w ;

But for future rants, I'll remember that dA is always open; just like how I use to rant more when I had fewer friends and watchers XD (Those were mostly anime-oriented rants, but still!)

Sometimes I worry about ranting though. There's 1-4 people who I'd probably be ranting ABOUT, and those people know my dA, so I'm kinda worried that one day they'll read one of my journals and it's all about them! XD

Anyway, thanks so much, I'm feelin' better today ; w ; :heart: :hug:
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:iconsiri-nan:
Aww....then if you ever want to privately rant, feel free to note me then, yeah? D: *huggles* (or set up a private blog and just let it pour out, especially when you're not in the mood to be given advice and just want to complain). If you wanna talk, I'll listen. (though it seems we both have a habit of not seeking out in these types of thing, huh? XP *shot*)

I'm glad you did! :hug: Had an awesome b-day? 8D
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